Ok Now i Know wat IS LOVE
Love cant be change
So now i understand
and i know wat i must do
i am not a emo boy anymore
i am a person hu willing to hear wat u all say and will keep promiss
i will make all ppl happy
i will not care about the 4 idoits
and i will show my smile whenever i can
so
I AM FINALLY FREE FROM EMO
I AM FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

If SomeONe C0uld understand My feelings it would be more G00d```>.<

Y is my life so lonely and emo
is there some way i wont be like this
looking at myself in the morrior every day
but nth have change
wishes are not granted
devils are not destroy
is there one day which angles come to me???
is there one day i can spend my day with her???
is there any way i can get all the things i dun wan get out of my head????
IS there Any one could help me???
hais..........
so is it that my life must be in this sate
or it could be change
but if it could be change how???
lots and lots of things are in my heart but it just cant say or take it out
feel like telling her but cant
bec no courge cant tell
hais.............
hope tomorrow wont be anthor emo day for me .......
kenneth i know u are very good fren to me
but do u rmb i have ask u if i am a bad guy but u say no?
i know u treated me as ur best fren
but i must say sorry to u bec i think
u should not me too good to me as
i am not a good person
i am hopeless
sorry i cant do any thing to help u
sorry all my frens sorry
sowie sowie i am relli sowie
kenneth hope u can find anthor better fren then me
like shannon she could be ur best fren
i am not good enough i think
>.< i am just a useless bum i fial wateva think i tot i would win and i will be happy
i said wateva think i tot could make her happy but fail
i TRIed EVERY THINK I COULD to make a hole for me to goo in her heart
but every thing i tried EVERY THINGS I TRIED
All ARe useless
i am a useless guy
wateva i do always bad luck
nth much to talk just keep rmbering a poem i wrote before

Love Is Blind
Up on the sKy
Love Is FAte
do ur own date but
becarefull of love as i might breck ur heart


i think now then i relli understand this poem .....
nth much to say dun wish to talk sadness always come sobness always apper i think I AM USELESS I THINK NTH COULD HELP ME ..................................

If SomeONe C0uld understand My feelings it would be more G00d```>.<

Hi... again...zzz
today is Sux
in the morning go to school wanted to play basketball with kenneth in the end the school unallow so sux
and i change a new wallet .....
i found it nice
by the way
i think i can do sumthing
this thing i think i can do it so
that she will be happy and i will be happy too
but i dunno if i can success so i will nevr know if i never try
ok lets go back about today i came back home then i use comp
after that go chinese tuition
and andrich never come for tuition lazy bum la him
then now updating blog l0r still a sian and boring day........
so i will try it out if it works good for me
but if it dun means i relli got to remain as this untill she is happy then me happy

If SomeONe C0uld understand My feelings it would be more G00d```>.<

hais.....
today ok la better then every other day not so boring but still sian
in the morning i wake up and waer contek lenes aiya i forget how to wear le at 1st
then after that i finally wear it
about 12.47pm kenneth come my hosue to pratice on the song
yue ding
we pratice and kenneth cannot play the song
he keep missing some notes and out of tunes =.=
so after that i ask him to pratice and i use computer
nth to do so i play comp then find out a new game mode call power ball
then we eat noodle then he say he gtg
then i do nth so sian watch tv sleep and then watch tv then sleep then
i use comp then now udate blog
today quite ok la better then the rest but i stll find it little boring
and i tot the one i like could come today but cant she cant come so hais
nvm then all lifes are different for me my life is sianzz and boring and emo
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hais nth much to say so byez...

If SomeONe C0uld understand My feelings it would be more G00d```>.<

Hais..........
today so sian
nth to do in class
just watch and watch and watch movie
then genna scolded by mrs karthi bec of me laughing
and then play basket ball alone so sian then play untill rain still play
5pm ++ then go so sucks
no poeple play with me
in the lonely dark
hais
nevermind i used to it alrdy
always have this feeling just nid to used to it and it will be ok
xD =P =D
i will not be sad anymore i wan to spend
the rest of my P6 to be happy............

If SomeONe C0uld understand My feelings it would be more G00d```>.<

Hais.........
i think i have to stop it...
it is getting over control...
i must stop it by some how...
but how???
few more days before i leave my pri school and miss all my fren
but i relli hope i can be with someone foreva
but it just impossible
and i just dunno y i very very
cant let go of it
ok
i think i nid to claim myself down
relax...relaxx...
arg.... i dunno wat to do..
can some one tell me wat to do
i AM so confuse.........
how i wish i can go out with my fren and how i wish i can be with her froeva and how...how...how...i wish the pri 6 after psle wont end
how i wish i have a time machine and can make me return to 3years ago and tell someone somthing.........
so am i such a failure
am i???
hais....hope i will have fun in school with all my frens
my close fren i wish to have fun with u 2~~~
>.< T_T >.<

(Sadness Always Need Someone To Help U To Solve It Somehow Or Anthor)
That will help for most ppl but for me i dunno bec it is just a phrase alot of frens tell me but i think nth can help me onli myself but i need time........i...need..time
Just afriad i will miss her`~~~~`~~~~` as long as she is happy i think i am all rite

If SomeONe C0uld understand My feelings it would be more G00d```>.<

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!
why it always is me
why is it always happening to me
no matter wat it is me
y i cant get my true love
y i am always so Xtra when i am with my fren
y like all the poeple is against me
y i always so unlucky
y there is no body who will care about me
y there is no one in school in any where hu will
spend her time with me
y am i so odd one out
y i always have a type of feeling which i just cant tell anyone
Y even the one i like have give me a chance but i think
love without feeling is useless
y i am so down always y am i so emo always
i wan to be a normal child with nth in my head
i dun wan to have wired feelings
even psle i also have feelings for someone feeling so sad and i dunno y
but i know y i am sad now
but i just know one way to do
one way.....
onli...one...
IT might broke my heart but is the onli choice that person could be happy
i can risk my live for her
but the one she have feelings for is ...bo..me.....
i RELLI CANT STAND IT ANYMORE MY HEART IS BROKE I AM SO
DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN ................
I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

If SomeONe C0uld understand My feelings it would be more G00d```>.<